I just had a visit and we discussed someone we both know.

I read a list of description and bingo, with everyone, I got a YES.

It sometimes takes a little boost to make you feel better, to backup your reasoning as to why things happen the way they do.

That’s 3 now who have agreed with the description. Without me adding any fuel to the fire, I just ask does this describe someone and its the same person every time.

So, before I leave today, thank you father, thank you for taking the blinders off those I know, who know her too.

I pray those girls are interrupted to NOT believe a lie, and either seek me for the truth or see with their own eyes.

Now, father if you can get to my son, as my daughter figured it out. My prayers are being answered as you can only fool people some of the time, but you cannot fool all the people, all of the time.

Just got that and yeehaa

Well mainly because someone, wants to control another.

But instead of learning, it aint your will, but his will, you start playing big to get your own way and kill the innocent, to gain power.

When you cut that down, power is an illusion, for you truly never really have it.

Many people will agree, to save face, or keep peace, but secretly disagree, for not many will stand and say, ”I do not agree”.

So when this happens, a leader will throw a hissy fit and cause a war, to get their own way.

That is what I think, and when the time comes, are they in for a shocker. For judgement day, is coming for you, and where you end up, for your eternal life.

And to end with, “fair crack of the whip”, being a real man, you are in need to be MATURE ENOUGH, to understand someone others point of view and agree to disagree… not destroy because you can..

I was just checking my stats, then Donald Trump came to mind.

He takes the foolish to confound the wise, think about it.

Sometimes, someone who seems foolish, over puffed etc, but may be used via the father, to make you learn a key principle.

Food for thought isn’t it.

And thinking of the national anthem, the home of the free, really, well until you over step, then every power will try and jail you or stop you….

Again food for thought..

I was about to leave and this came to mind.

When someone is TELLING YOU something, does it ever in your head.

Scream, hang on a cotton picking minute. To me this has happened many times, why, I believe its the holy spirit, warning me.

Telling me, something is coming to try and destroy you. I believe its him showing me, they are not to be trusted, they are being used via the enemy, to kill, steal and destroy.

Hmmm, what about those words, I have someone in mind, who has taken great satisfaction, in stealing, trying to destroy and kill relationships, so they think they can stop me.

Funny how stupid the enemy is, he uses people, he is after them as much as me, but I have the father on my side, so who is the looser… hmmmm

I asked once, when a certain someone I walked away from tried everything to abuse me. Then the bible held the key, when I walked away from family. When the demon in you, is ejected, he goes out into the desert, and he comes back with more, to infiltrate you. In short, how many put up the NO VACANCY sign, when this is done. I thank God all the time, but especially for this, because I see what he has shown me.
And when your refilled with more demons, seeing that in someone is scary, because of their end.

They are no longer seeing from their eyes, but are consumed by the spirit, no not a spirit but a demonic force, to destroy, all surrounding them. And its them, I have prayed for…

I use to have a body, that was hour glass shaped and I hated it. I was taught by disgusting men, to loath it. Even when others would envy its natural state.

So, at one point, I stopped eating, yes, stopped even water was a push, why, feeling my skin crawl because of living with daily, what I had to endure, my future mother in law was aghast, because of the bony state I was in.

As I have said before, very openly, because I work under the words, “the truth will set you free”.

Knowing how it feels to loath yourself and anyone touching you, or their words.

I am learning to love my body, why, its time for one, two only I have the power to control, who comes near me, I choose, not anyone else and if they say something I don’t like, the look of disapproval comes over my face, and I stopped many years ago, saying “oh that’s ok”. I say, “thank you for your apology, much appreciated”, instead.

So, with the new hype about weight loss injections, something didn’t stick, something is wrong, why, you don’t mess with your pancreas. To just be the weight others want you to be, I am overweight by others standard, because its been my shield, many are not over weight because of food, it can be mental, not physical.

I am never going to fit the norm, because even when I was size 11, someone always found fault, so I am just gonna love me, all of me. If that don’t fit you, then that is YOUR problem, as long as I eat the right things and am happy, what is YOUR problem, well really I don’t give a flying fig and I don’t need you, to answer.

Having had illness over my life, and operations, being healthy is a great goal. Not the size I am, it has taken a long time to look in the mirror and then to like me.

So, I say this, if you want a quick fix, it doesn’t exist without costing you something or even your life.

I have given myself permission to loose weight the brain has held onto. But I am not forcing it, I am allowing my body to do its thing, I am not following a diet, I am eating nourishing food.

It is that simple, how you see me, is your battle, not mine. I want to live a happy life, whatever form or shape that I come in, I have nothing less than you, if you look at it, I have understanding more than you ever could.

So who wins here, he does.

How many times in life, are we restricted, for coming up with ideas, or tapping into his spirit, because of how we daily are trained to comply.

I have never been one to follow along, and if I ever have, it hasn’t taken me long to awake from the slumber of trusting in someone, who is untrustable.

I always see things others, do not, I can invent things, see gaps in what they are doing, find the join in a link of the computer to over ride its program. I have stunned others and sometimes, I stun myself, because, many times, it just happens, without even me trying.

Thinking back to my childhood, many times, I would internally fight against what I saw and make the decision, I would not allow that to carry over into adulthood.

If I had, in my work place, listened to them all, I would have not succeeded in what I was able to accomplish. For sometimes, people need to be shown a new way, before they try and shut you down.

I have a secret love of spreadsheets and data bases, why, because the organisation, the ability to make it what I need and find the link, but also the power of correct information. To find the research of who and what and how, the key numbers etc.

But I don’t like accounting, I thrived when I worked in the city, because, while a certain someone tried to belittle me with a printed plan of building a data base, I could see instantly, what he could not. That gave me a feeling of power, because even though, he thought because of his career, position and education, he was superior to me, the table got turned around, real quick.

Not many people understand, how I can think, but while they are talking, I can break a sentence down, to key words. How a sentence, when you break it up, does not fit and you can pick up on a crap load of nothing, but manipulation or lies.

Many times, I play the stupid card, or gullible, because they seem to need, to have this superior complex, but I know what I know, its that simple, I am not saying I am better, just that I am not restricted.

I am the round hole, the square peg, doesn’t fit into, its that simple, I don’t think I have more than you, I just can see sometimes, what passes by you without you picking it up.

I have two inventions, processing through my brain, I have many ideas, new ways, etc etc every hour of the day.

And, this is my normal, I cannot just follow along when I can see the obvious. So don’t think you need to restrict your thinking, your not like everyone else, you are unique, so except it…

I was flicking through the channels and I saw a young woman, who gave an excuse for her new partner.

But, if she was on this side, she would grab her bags and leave immediately.

So many times, the world jumps into the water before they have learned how to swim. And this leads to so much grief.

If you would only, step out, see, hear, listen, watch and break the tolerance for very bad behavior. I believe changes would take place, we as women, can use the excuse, oh if I wait, a little more time, etc etc etc.

No, this is what I will accept from you, you take it or leave it… until then we chat, but that is all…

Wow, would that make boys stand up to learn and become men…

It took a long long time to understand this, when its all you are surrounded by, seeing the landscape is hard.

But, after I separated myself, I began to heal, once I began counseling, I began to see the cold hard truth.

You see, I have a half sibling, who is one, as the counselor said, a gas lighting, narcissist.

But I believe its more like a flame thrower, because it felt that way.

I went on google recently and the description, fits to a T.

Obsession with looks and appearance, constant need for attention, belittling and demanding behavior, manipulative and controlling behavior, lack of accountability, envious behavior towards siblings, sabotage and manipulation, gas lighting and emotional abuse, controlling and belittling behavior etc etc.

It goes on about their need to micromanage, turn those close to you, against you and them think your crazy, when its them all along. There is much more, but boy does it fit, so many people who have discussed this person, have nothing nice to say, but confrontation, will do nothing. I always think, if SHE only knew, her own importance is the only one that they see, for others do not give a stuff, but TOLERATE them.

And how I followed the hints, even when I didn’t know it… Separate yourself from the person, take time to heal, seek counseling, take responsibility for your part in a conflict, remain calm and unaffected, disengage from their conversation, set and enforce clear boundaries, keep what your doing to yourself.

What stuck out to me, was many qualified individuals say, why doesn’t she stop at the interpersonal boundary. As I always say, because she thinks, that doesn’t apply to her, that she can do what ever she wants.

But little by little, people are waking up, and the spot light is coming onto her, not in a nice way…

I will continue to pray, because, her end is near… and she cannot manipulate that one.

Facing, the reality of certain people and what has been done, that steered my path, has been so hard.

Because I gave so many, understanding from their side, the situation etc etc.

But, what it did, was leave me out on a limb, by myself, knowing no one would help me if I called.

So many times, instead of protection, it had been what would others think, or its easier not to deal with it.

Then you get to my age, then think, what is so hard about behaving like a grown up, what is so hard about standing your ground and protecting the helpless.

AGAIN, WHAT IS SO HARD…..

Facing, the many occasion where my deepest hurts lye, has been so hard, it has wrenched out, the hidden depths, that I hid from, to just keep going.

But the time has come, to face the truth, face and understand as an adult, why I was left on that limb, as if forgotten, Or acknowledged my existence, so the situation, where you should have called the police, evicted them or just served justice, was not done.

I dislike strongly if anyone sits on the fence and watches a crime, because you need to make a stand. For the life span, pain will be not only the memory, but it will continue for the next generation too.